From the actor recognized for roles in Skins and Game of Thrones, this is a deeply intimate and shockingly honest memoir detailing the journey through acting, fame, mental illness, and the struggle to escape a cult-like organization. Discover the story of how a belief in magic shattered Hannah Murray’s reality.

In 2017, Hannah Murray was a successful actor working with A-list stars and Oscar-winning directors. Facing the daily costs of acting, she sought relief and found it in a reiki healer promising a form of magic. This led to increasing involvement with the organization behind the practice in London, whose charismatic leader, secret knowledge, and complex rituals proved seductive, cult-like, and ultimately destructive.

• An Instant Sunday Times Bestseller.
• Named a Vogue, Telegraph, and The Nerve Book of the Summer 2026.
• Harrowing, unexpectedly funny, and genuinely jaw-dropping account praised by Vogue.
• A propulsive, shockingly honest, and extraordinarily intimate portrayal of a mind taken over the edge.

This memoir chronicles Hannah’s descent from the outer edges of fame, through Hollywood film sets and London parties, to being seduced by the magical thinking of an organization promising health. The narrative covers her eventual detention in a hospital where she struggles to differentiate between reality and imagination, following a week-long course that separated her from friends and family.

• Author: Hannah Murray
• Binding: Hardcover
• Publisher: Hutchinson Heinemann
• Publication Date: May 28, 2026
• Language: English
• Print Length: 368 pages
• ISBN-13: 978-1529155211
• Dimensions: 14.6 x 3.4 x 22.4 cm
• Weight: 474 g

Explore this exceptional memoir that charts a path from acting success to entanglement with destructive belief systems.